Wincer

Trying to be less self-absorbed and trying to look at things from other people's perspectives.


On a totally unrelated note I bought a Buster Keaton Handmade Pendant from the incredibly talented
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I really want to get into buying more original art. Cris Cleen is selling original paintings but I'm strapped for cash.

Also it is difficult to support your local economy/banks when your local banks atm explodes when you ask it for a balance inquiry.

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I want to practice drawing more! I watched Kiki's Delivery Service with my buddy and I really hope that I can draw like that someday.
Such a good movie!

Anyway, I wish you all good health and happiness.

Sincerely
Wincer!

Books are fun!

I found an art book that actually kind of help me draw better, the only thing is that the artist is absolutely obsessed with old men (I mean who wouldn't be) but all of the exercises are drawing old men with jowls. And I got excited because I was getting o.k. (.005 out of 100%) and I was like "I'm going to make an original character desu!"
And it slowly but surely turned into an old man. With jowls. And  really big nose. That is all I can draw. Disembodied old man heads.


Anyway. My summer has been VERY uneventful. I've just been reading a lot (which I have never done before, never much of a book fan), but I enjoy it. I really like the 20s authors, but I also love fantasy. I'm sad to have found out that Diana Wynne Jones died, because I read one of the Chrestomanci books (was this summer or last summer, oh god everything is blurring together), and I loved the House of Many Ways (last summer). My dad is reading The Name of the Wind and he loves it, so maybe I'll pick that up. But since I work at a book store, I can read the unpublished books for free so long as I write a little review.
I was reading a Swedish murder mystery called "The Snowman" and it was really good, no spelling mistakes of missed punctuation, but when I got to the second to last chapter one of the sentences was(were?) so hilarious. It literally read
"She got up to 2243241<,>...,?>,5"
Oh really? Did the writer fall asleep lol?

Anyway, I have been thinking about what I would do if I wasn't acting/studying acting (I don't have a job in theatre lol), I always imagine myself in some terrible accident and then I start to believe that I was actually in it and I resign myself to my fate... then I realize that it never happened. I daydream often and deeply.
But yeah, if I lost my arms I'd want to write books lol, but I am a terrible writer. I have no ideas, and whenever I wrote (fanfiction lol oh god) it was just self-fulfilling self-insertion lmao.
But then I thought I would want to be a thinker or a scientist, but then oh wait.. I'm really ignorant to those matters.

I have stuff that I think I am good at, but a lot of it depends on my body and health, I guess what I'm trying to say is that I should exercise my noodle more... that and my brain. (Oh har har har).

But yeah. I'm very comfortable with complacency. But maybe that is because I'm scared.

The world is so big, and anything can happen. Sometimes I feel invincible, but then I get a taste of reality.
When I was in high school I developed a reputation for myself and gained confidence from working in a small company of actors, but when I went out to audition for college where no one knew my name, no one thought me all that grand, and there were people from bigger better schools auditioning, I realized that the working world is very competitive (understatement of the day).

I have been thinking about where to move or go after college (finances willing... damn you debt). I like a lot of cities in the US, but I'm getting my Irish passport/citizenship and I was like "I'll work in Ireland" , but the population of Ireland is tinier than that of NYC! Isn't that crazy.
And my dad told my Ireland is the same size as NJ. I'm so stupid with geography and common facts. I was under the impression it was the same size as England lmao.
And seriously, why would they hire me lmao?

But yeah. I'm reading a book called Rules of Civility, and part of it deals with hopefulness that is associated with being young. And oh goodness, that is not a bad thing by any means! If we were pessimists from birth to death how rough that would be, but when we are young there is a certain sense that anything could happen which moves us from place to place.
When we get older and we have shuffled and hopped and been flung by circumstance we slowly become (some of us, I'm generalizing) complacent with where we are. We pay off the debts of our previous flinging about.
Now some old people are still kicking, and getting knocked about.
But yeah. The book is awesome!!! Really readable, and I feel like I know the characters. Which is a great praise for an author! A simple and overused praise, but still great.

I wonder. I wonder what will come next.
I need to work on myself. I'm impatient, stupid and sometimes to self-absorbed. I don't hate myself but my faults are becoming more apparent.

I love children's books! There is one called Skippy Jon Jones about a kitten and the art is so adorable! And I also like Freckleface Strawberry!

And lol, I wanted to get the sides of my head shaved, but the hairdresser convinced me only to shave one side for an asymmetrical look, which can look cool when one side is very long, but that was not the case.
Now one side is 3 cm shorter, and it just looks like I was really lazy or let my mom cut my hair.

I want to learn an instrument and a language, but those are empty wishes lol.
Doesn't everyone? The determined actually take action

I just found all the seasons of Totally Spies online. Guess I won't be leaving my room from a few weeks lolz.